Welcome to Gemini Season…the season of Light, maturity, growth, and action. In the Western astrology calendar, I am a triple Gemini, which means my sun, moon, and ascendent all fall under the sign of the Twins, ruled by the planet Mercury—the grande Communicator. Coming onto the planet with this configuration with zero earth and water in my chart means I have been challenged to find ways to nourish and nurture myself because the traditional constructs of support were not available…not just in family but also in society. The older I get, the more I see how society’s beliefs do not support my taking care of myself. Society generally wants us to fit in, follow the status quo, and be a rule follower…all in an attempt to control us as capitalistic conformists. It is each of our personal responsibility not to feed into the dark but applaud ourselves and others that are choosing to stand for diversity and self care, ie; the Light.
Here are 5 Lies used to try to dim your Light:
- Pressuring you to drink alcohol if you don’t. You can have just one drink. Come on, when did you become so boring? Dammit! You doing what is right for you makes me feel bad about myself and question my own behavior…How dare you have personal sovereignty! Maybe if I shame you I can manipulate you. Umm, get new friends that either never drank the ‘cool-aid’ or also decided to put down the cancer juice and take their life back. Bye depression, hello feeling feelings! Hello to hanging out with folks that value presence, authenticity and don’t always need a substance to connect and have fun. Alcohol is so 2019.
- Blaming the victim. This can start young. One child in the family points out truth and is immediately made into the family scapegoat in order to turn the attention away from reality in order to manipulate the situation. If you don’t know what some of these words mean and you believe in personal autonomy and are interested in personal growth, I encourage you to look them up. #tonepolicing #gaslighting #scapegoating #narcissism #personalitydisorder #codependency
Later in relationship one might ignore their partners feelings and blame them for eventually becoming angry or leaving. Often times the person who exhibits anger is the one that gets blamed while the quiet manipulating pacifist is sided with. This can mean being judged for coming from a broken home—-Like it was ever the kid’s fault. I was actually blamed by my biological father for not being in his life when I lived right down the road my whole upbringing! I would argue kids that only saw perfection are the ones without a realistic view of the world and perhaps not as adaptive to adulting, so let’s stop with all the judging and find some empathy for one another.
For my solar return this year, I have chosen to gift myself with a Dark room with no light, no sound for 5 days…Why you might ask? Well, to explore my own subconscious more deeply. I have sat in silence for 10 day retreats for over 30 years now and am ready to go deeper. One of my biggest fears is spiders. I have come to realize that my mother (whom I’m estranged from) spirit animal is likely the spider. When I was thinking of what I was most afraid of as I approach this sabbatical, I thought about spiders, as in essence I am going into ‘their’ environment. Instead of carrying fear into the dark, I am consciously wrapping myself in a layer of protection supported by love for the spirit (*not the personality I have had conflict with) with the confirmation I am whole, loved, and supported by a power much greater than this human experience. I affirm my belief in a friendly Universe, despite cultural ignorance and in this higher knowing I remember—I am Light! So, let’s own it.
Shine on friends!